I miss her

Maybe it's because I've been having to find new doctors in this area, and you always have to give medical histories.  Maybe it's because we've had close friends up to visit who I feel comfortable enough to be open and vulnerable with.  Maybe it's because last week Ashlyn came into my room in tears after singing on the karaoke machine with her friends because a song that played was about a girl missing her grandfather who had passed away and she said it made her think of her Nana.  Maybe it's because we are going to visit my dad soon and things don't seem quite right going to visit him without her being there.  Maybe it's because the girls pulled out our wedding video a couple of weeks ago and wanted to watch it which of course included many pictures of her. 

Or maybe it's just because I miss the normal, everyday things.  I miss talking to her on the phone...simply hearing her voice would put my heart at ease.  She always had the right words, even when they were hard to hear.  And more often than not, it was just her sitting by my side without any words at all.  I miss hearing her laugh.  I miss my girls not getting to spend time with her...going back-to-school shopping or making milkshakes or doing some craft.  I truly miss them not just getting to know her.  I miss getting to come home and the normal pampering that any 34 yr old daughter would still receive simply for being one's daughter.  I miss the feel of holding her hand.  I miss calling and asking a question about how to cook something.  I miss her burning rolls in the oven and then laughing that she did it again!  I miss her talking loudly to the TV over some sporting event and then falling asleep in "her" chair cheering on the San Antonio Spurs or the Horned Frogs football team.

I miss my mom.  I miss being known and loved so very well.  I miss the deep, deep friendship that we had.  There have been more tears lately as I miss all the she was in my life, but those tears also have hope mingled in their midst.  I do not grieve like one "with no hope.  For since we believe that Jesus died and was raised to life again, we also believe that when Jesus returns, God will bring back with him the believers who have died...Then, together with them, we who are still alive and remain on earth will be caught up in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air.  Then will will be with the Lord forever."  I Thes. 4:13-14, 17   These years apart will seem like a blink of an eye.  And once again, I'll hear that great laugh, feel that hand in mine, and feel even more at home than ever before because we both truly will be Home, with the Savior himself.  I can't imagine anything sweeter.

Hotel de Mills

We have been looking forward to July for several months now.  Our house has been full of dear friends and it has made our hearts so full!  First up, the beloved Aunt Jen.  She came up for July 4th weekend so got to see the girls in their bike parade and of course celebrate our Independence Day in style with fireworks, homemade ice cream, and a little R&R.  It was fantabulous!

Jen....we love you so!

The following weekend we were looking forward to our wonderful friends, the Fustons, coming in but poor Tenley got a stomach bug and we are now hoping for a rain check this fall.  Our disappointment was short-lived because the following weekend our close friends, the Stehrs headed up to visit!

These girls are so much fun together...honestly, we rarely saw them when we were at the house because they just went from one room to the next playing together.  It is such a sweet friendship they share!  The above pic is at Fayetteville's Farmers Market.

We squeezed in swimming and the drive-in movie...lots of conversations (one bw Audrey and I that still makes us laugh) and lots of laughter.  This family is one that makes you just want to love the Lord and love those around you better.  We are so blessed to call you friends!

And you may think that's it but it isn't.  Our good friends, and Ashlyn's best friend, the Phillips family got to come up this weekend.  The kids were up super late, and it's been awhile since I've been up until 1 (please no old lady comments), but we enjoyed every minute of it.

I so miss having Avery around on a regular basis for our Ashlyn.  They share a friendship that will stand the test of time...but wish we could zip over to their house in under 2 minutes like we used to.

We decided to do the Arkansas thing and be "outdoorsie."  It was beautiful, but boy was it hot.  You can't tell how profusely we were sweating in this pic.  Yet, hot or cold, rain or shine, we love this family, and we're so glad they came!



It's no secret...

I love summer!  I mean, I really loooove summer!  Always have.  Always will. 

Why, you ask?

1.  As a mom, I love having more time with my girls!

2.  I'll take 100 degree heat over 40 degree cold any day! (and yes, 40 is cold)

3.  I love tanned faces.  Here are some of my favorites:

4.  Can I get an "amen, hallelujah!" to not having to get up and get going by 7:30 in the morning?

5. I love that it's sunny almost all of the time.

6.  I adore that it stays light later into the night.

7.  Extra play time with extra fun friends does my heart good.  Here's one night that made my heart full:

8.  I truly enjoy being at the pool...kinda wish we could do it all year 'round!

9.  Walks at 8:30pm

10.  Fresh corn on the cob...even better, eating fresh corn on the cob outside for dinner.

And there you have it, my top 10 reasons for the night.  (Okay, and an extra one just for fun...wearing flip flops every. single. day.)

 

 



Beautiful Lengths from a Beautiful Girl

Many of you already know, but Ashlyn has been growing out her hair for a good year and a half in order to donate it to make a wig for a woman who has last her hair due to cancer treatments.  We searched out L*cks of Love and P*ntene's Beautiful Lengths, and decided to go with Beautiful Lengths.  Well, today those pretty locks of hers got cut.  Here are a couple before shots:

 A couple in process pics:

And the beautiful finished product:



Sweet girl, you are beyond beautiful on the outside!  However, your heart is true gold and has a beauty that only your Heavenly Daddy can give you.  I am so proud of you and love you to the moon and back!

Home Sweet Home

After living with Jason's parents for 6 months (we never would have guessed when we moved that it would have been that long), we moved into our own home here in Rogers, Arkansas almost 2 months ago.  We were thankful for David and Melody's kindness, but also so excited to be in our own place and begin truly settling in here.

We love our house, but I have to say...even if our house were a 6X6 foot shack we'd still love being here because of the wonderful neigbors God has blessed us with.  So, without further ado...some pictures:

Happy, happy birthday, Laney!

I truly can't believe that my middle child is now 6 years old.  It's amazing how quickly time passes, and honestly, this momma's heart is having a hard time with it.  It's true though, our Laney-bear is 6 years old!

On her actual birthday night we went to Shogun for her dinner.  It took over an hour to get seated but this sweet girl is worth every minute of it!

We opened some great gifts and then waited until Saturday for her party.  She chose to invite a bunch of her friends from school and go to a local art studio, Imagine.  They made purses, sang Justin Be*ber songs, and laughed like crazy.  It was too cute!

My dearest Laney Hope, I never cease to be amazed at how quickly people are drawn to you.  Yet, I'm not surprised at why they desire to be around you...you are a tender heart, sweet, fun, ready to laugh, and always ready to make a new friend.  As your love for Jesus grows, I pray that your friends' love for Jesus grows too because they see Him so brightly in you.  You are an amazing blessing in our lives, Laney-lou.  And we love you as high as the moon and back!

Easter 2011

I'm sorry.  What did you say?  Easter was a month ago?  I'm behind?  Yes, I know.  It seems to be the world I live in.  Am I comfortable with that?  Not really, but it's my life right now.  And while I may be constantly behind, I am constantly blessed as well.  So that is what I am trying to allow my heart to focus on rather than my messy house, the friends and family I am missing, and the fact that my thighs seem to be growing as wide as the Red Sea parted (age...gotta love it).

My biggest girl continues to get bigger.

My middle one is another year older, and the youngest of the bunch no longer is a baby...sigh.

But my hope...tried, true and eternal Hope...is found in nothing less than Jesus' blood and righteousness.  However many years pass, and as things shift and change over time (including this body of mine), I am reminded that this world is not my home.  And because of that glorious Easter day a couple of thousand years ago, I do have Hope!